Mechanics of material

This semester Im taking 20 credit hours and though it may seem alot, I've noticed that Im more free compared to last sem, well in terms of classesla, but the assignments, projects, reports and what not without a doubt, hands down, undeniably beat the crap out of last sem. Every single week I had either an assignment to do or a report to finish and that doesnt include tutorials. The main source of the infinite number of assignments that I had to do was MECHANICS OF MATERIALS. Owh how I despise this F-ing subject. Haha, I blame the lecturer for this, but I have to put some blame on myself too for not trying hard enough. For some reason, eventhough I give a 100% effort to listen in class for this subject but nothing just goes in my head. Its all s-steress and s-sterain... maybe Im put off by the lecturer's slang.... I just dont understand. The ironic thing is that at the beginning of the sem, one of my coursemate was really put off by this and he kind of rebelled and responded to the lecturer rudely so I advised him to be patient, and late sem the roles are reversed as Im the one complaining and my coursemate's the one advising me..... ironic isnt it?

The cheryy on top of my misery in this subject is that my chances of getting a good grade for this subject is abismal!!! I mean no chance at all. Frosty the snow man has a better chance of suviving in the Sahara desert than me getting an A for this subject. I consecutively failed the 4 tests the lecturer gave so I can kiss this subject goodbye! Im kindda upset with that because after each test I genuinely taught that I had a chance of passing the tests but every single time Im WRONG..... celaka punya. Its not that I didnt study for the tests at all, I gave it my best everytime, but I guess my best isnt good enough. Now Im not having hi hopes for finals, but I cant give up just yet. According to my estimations, the best I grade I can get (By God's grace) is an A-, so Im hoping for the best and giving it my all for the finals!! I still have enough in me to fight for this subject!! heres a little poem(dunno if can consider a poem or not) I came up especially for this 'wonderful' subject

I gave it my all but I guess you've let me down,
You just can help but to see me frown,
U may have me pinned flat on the ground
But Im not out just yet I aint fooling around

Mechanics of materials why do you hate me so?
Why are you such a stranger to me? Why are you a John doe?
But brief acquintences can become real good friends,
So believe me when I say that this is not the end.

Hahaha.... I think professionally its wrong in terms of the number of syllables and what not, but I dont care, I just want to make it ryhme!

Study Week!

Its that time of a sem again when all classes are finished and students are given a week to study for final exams. For we it will be watching all my friends (well most of them) go back to their respective hometowns. When I asked my friends whether their going home for study week they will be questioning whether its rhetorical or not and obviously the answer will be OF COURSE DEFINITELY POSITIVELY YES! Well most of my friends, some of them choose not to go back cause they wouldnt be able to study at home. I feel the same way but home sounds good to me right now, but being 'overseas' doesnt give the convinience of going back home anytime I want. So I'm in college as I see most of my friends pack their things and head on home and I feel a tad bit of emoness coming on cause I feel like going back home myself. BUT! I am sure that is a bad choice (not that my home is a bad place) because I wouldnt study at all!! Seeing as though my results for the first sem is not that good, I am aiming to push up my grade point average and I constantly remind myself of my goal this sem which is to get deans list! Seems like an impossible thing right now cause I've been failing a certain subject.... mechanics of material. That subject is crazy hard. Those people who has the perception that engineering students have it better off than medical students you'll be eating you're words when you try this subject on for size. I dont know why most people have this misconception?? I mean just cause you're gonna be a doctor or a pharmacist or someone who save lives doesnt push you up a higher standard than others right? Sorry to those who might take this to heart but Im just saying what I think is right. This doesnt apply to medical students alone, those who think they have to struggle more or their education standard is higher than others you can take that narrow minded thinking and shove it up your backside!! Hahaha, taught I was gonna that word aey? Haha now Im trying not to practice using foul words.

My roomate just went back home this morning, well one of my roomate, my other roomate decided not to go back cause he prefers to study here. As for my emoness, I cant stop to feel abit sad and I keep listening to this song titled running away by Midnight hour. Its a nice song and its about running away from a certain place/person, well obviously! The title is self explanatory.... hahaha. I always have an eye for the obvious, LOL!. I can relate to this song cause I feel like Im sick of being away from home actually its college but I love my college and I want to say it in a way that doesnt make me sound like I despise my college. Ok, I feel as though I want to run away back home and leave everything behind! I dont know how to say this but lately when I see certain clicks in college I just feel like screaming at the top of my lungs and say to them stop being so close minded!! We just dont click with certain people maybe because we just dont have common interests or most importantly common language. I try to talk to them but everytime I try I am meet with defeat and they dont seem to respond to my effort at all. I mean for something to work between two parties, there must be mutual effort by both parties. If only one person tries and the other person just doesnt give a hoot then how does a relationship spawn? Just cause they have their own click doesnt mean that they have to distant themselves from everyone else! I may have the same traits and tend to hang out with my own click but what to do?, when in rome do as the romans do. Its kinda different from where I'm from. Where I'm from no one's a stranger, well not literally, what I'm trying to say is that they are more friendly the people fom where I'm from. I might be wrong I might be right but this is what's on my mind. Thats why everytime I see 'these' people, my emoness is triggered and I will be so low spirited. But with God as my pillar, I'm sure I get through this. Why are my posts becoming so emo lately? I question myself all the time? Should I be so emo? Sometimes I have to let my emotions show, well certain emotions not all. If I keep it bottled inside I dont think I will be able to handle the pressure when it all erupts. Thats why its good for us to have someone we can express our feelings to whether its God or your good friend, we all need support and strength.

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!

Its been a whole year since my last post!! Actually I came upn it by mistake. My roomate told me that he has a blog so he showed me his blog and I was 'Hey I got a blog too' So I went on and showed him my blog site and when I saw the date of the last post which is 5th April 2009, I immediately had to post up a new post with the title above! Hahaha so much has changed in the last year. Im in a different Uni(University Malaya) Thank God... hahaha no offense to my previous Uni.... hehe. Im taking BS in Mechanical Engineering and right now Im about to finish my first year. By the next sem I shall not be known as a first year anymore but a sophmore, I think thats the right term for second year... heheh. Im staying in Kolej Kediaman Tuanku Bahiyah (Second College) which so happens to be my aunties college also when she was studying here. Not to mention the neighbouring college of my dad's ex-college (First College). ALOT happened during my first year, met new friends, got to know my coursemates a whole lot more, truth be told I only got to know my coursemates better in the second sem... haha. I joined PKV (Persaudaraan Kristian Varsiti) and I am currently upholding the post of vice secretary. Not the best post for me cause I dont like writting, but Im training myself to write more cause I need a way to express myself. Being away from my family for quite along time and all the events happening with college and Uni activities, these things take a toll on my emotions. But with new friends and good friends, I still have something to hold on to when I feel myself slipping from emotional stability..... hahaha as if Im that emotional. If I were to write everything that had happened in the past year it will take me a whole lot of time and a whole lot of web pages to do so. Therefore I will not post anything regarding the things that happende to me for the past year. Too bad guys but dont be dissapointed, theres more to come in my life and I promise you that there will be plenty of new and exciting posts in the near future. Haha I talk as if I have a world known blog and tons of people reads it LOLS. I hope that I will update my blog more frequently *fingers crossed* cos Im sure theres more to come on..... My life as a teenage Redwin.... to think of it, Im not a teenager anymore so I should really change the title of my blog, but I dont fell like it, anyways the current title has a good ring to it.